Quarter is winding down at college. I mentioned I signed up for 5 classes, which is a lot. I was sorta manic and 3 classes last quarter didn’t keep me busy enough. I’m not going to pass one, but I changed it from a graded class to a Pass-No Pass class. This is the first time I’ve never passed a class in my life. My identity and self-worth use to be so built around my intelligence I had a hard time once I started failing Greek, but I’ve sort of accepted it. I have all A’s and B’s in my other classes. I went to the NAMI Kick Off Luncheon Friday and they didn’t give me a star walker pin. You get a star walker pin for raising over $1,000; I raised over $2,000 last year. I actually had the courage to speak to one of the people in charge and they said they’s look into it. I should mark off assertiveness on my DBT Skills list.
All my in class finals are tomorrow and a large paper is due by 5pm. I should be working on it right now, but I’m not. I have a hard time working on things unless it’s crunch time or I’m with other people who are working on things too. I’ve taken 3 naps already today. My not taking my medication as prescribed is catching up with me. I haven’t been loading my pill chart, mostly out of laziness. So I’ve only been taking 1/2 of my mood stabilizers and 1/2 my PTSD meds and my sleep has been off at night; therefore I’m sleeping more during the day. Last night at 1am I took the extra meds I should normally take. I need to load my pill chart today.
Next quarter will only be 3 classes, it will be less stressful. Hopefully, busy enough to keep me motivated though. Next week is spring break, 20 somethings friend is coming! I’m so excited!
Yesterday was the NAMI Walk here is a picture of my 2016 Team:
Biggest team yet with 23 participants, 4 of which were children and 2 of which were dogs. It rained so it was a good turnout of my 31 people registered. I met my fund raising goal of $1,500. The highest amount I’ve raised in all 4 years too.
My ASD (Autistic Spectrum Disorder) Evaluation is set for May 24th so we’ll see what happens I also have an appointment with the therapist that day and it’s a week after school ended. Me and my case manager have decided to go to meetings once every two weeks because I’m doing good but that might chance with the loss of structure from summer and some realizations I had when talking with some Autistic friends. I’m set to receive to more AAs this semester, Associate Degrees or 2 years degrees one in Foreign Languages and the other in LGBT studies (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender). I’m not going to either commencement ceremony but for my LGBT studies one I am going to a more informal Rainbow Graduation and 20 somethings friend is going. I only invited 3 people, my sister and family friend couldn’t go both are traveling.
I signed my commitment thing to go to UC Davis and will be going to their transfer day this Friday and touring student housing and making my decision when I get home I plan on filling out the forms and putting my deposit down for student housing. My financial aid finally went through and I’m relieved I won’t be paying that much for college so if my unpredictable parents do something stupid I’m still okay.
Things are good but I’m exhausted from yesterday.
I have reached the $1,000 mark and have almost raised as much as I did last year, which was $1,065. My goal this year is $1,500 and I have a week left to reach my goal. I was hoping my sister and brother-in-law were going to have their garage sale before the NAMI Walk and they said they’d donate some of the money to my walk but that doesn’t look like it’s going to happen. I’m still happy I raised at least one thousand. I would like to brag last years even if I don’t meet this years goal. My team this year will be much bigger about 30 people compared to 14 last year. So over all I’m doing well. If you’d like to help me reach my goal if greatly appreciate it, every little amount counts.
This is my 4th Annual Walk and 3rd as a Team Captain. See my team photos above. My team name is Marci, Mental Health, and More from this blog that I use to raise awareness about mental illness.
I personally struggle with Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar Type and Borderline Personality Disorder. I think it’s very important to raise awareness and fight stigma. Many people with mental illnesses are just like you and me, they just face additional struggles.
NAMI is a great organization for support and information on everything mental illness.
Help me raise awareness by joining the team, or consider making a donation. My goal is to raise $1,000
My Personal Fundraising Pge
A little stressful with people joining and dropping out last minute.
Check out my Facebook page for more photos. We had 17 walkers and 3 dogs an team Marci, Mental Health, and More. Our team rose $1,265 with me personally raising $1,000 of it. In total the NAMI Walks Spring 2015 has raised $4,063,660.
I’ve sort of been absent from the blogging world a little bit and my last couple posts were about the voices and when I was having a rough time. Last Friday evening the voices stopped and I’ve been having good days ever since. 🙂 Tue at DBT, Wed at Counseling, and Thurs at Therapy I tried to dissect the events, triggers, and what not of last Thursday. Yeah I needed 3 days and 3 different providers to help me figure most of it out. You can see it on my last post of the behavior chain analysis. I also improved some communication skills the therapist suggested and much to my surprise they went well.
I have some fun stuff coming up as well as some stressful stuff. Tomorrow night I will be having a shirt decorating night for the NAMI Walk, it’s optional if people want to add words or drawings to their shirts. This is what the basic team shirt looks like.
Sunday I will be going to a painting groupon with lil sis and my mom. Right after that I’ll be leaving for Disneyland with my dad, we will drive Sunday. Monday is a special event for annual passholders, so that’s be fun and Tuesday we’ll be driving back. I do have to miss two days of school for it, so I’m working on getting all my homework done now and have switched study night to tonight since I’ll be gone.
I’ve been pretty productive today and am proud of myself. I’m happy that even with my Borderline symptoms screwing with me lately I’m still able to have good days. I’m also getting better at noticing when people are doing kind things for me and try to say thanks, though I’m still bad at that. I’ve been doing creative things for my SMASH group I’m in on Facebook.
Right now I’m number 7 in the Top Ten Individual Fundraisers. My personal goal is to raise $500 and my team to raise $1,000. I know many of you aren’t in the position to donate but it is tax deductible and even a $5 donation would mean a lot to me.
I’m doing the NAMIWalks 2015 again and this will be my 3rd year doing it! The Walk is set for Saturday May 2nd, 2015 at 10:30am. Last year I was surprised at how many people joined my team. This walk is dog (on leash) and kid friendly. Help me raise money and awareness for mental illness. NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) is one of the biggest national nonprofits for mental health, you can check out their webpage (www.nami.org) for general information on disorders, medication, treatment and more; it also has information on support and education groups for you and your family.
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Me and Dexter NAMI Walks 2013
My 2014 NAMI Walks Team