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Update 9/7/17

7 Sep

Things have been so -so the last week, before that it was chaos.  The back 2s (voices) came back for a go.  I was having flashback symptoms.  Bad dreams.  And mood swings like nothing.

I’m still having bad dreams but their not trans related more abandonment related and BPD stuff.  My mood has stabilized out and my case manager is probably right it was missing my hormones for 2 days (4 doses).  The flashbacks are less frequent but there still there.  The other night it was bad enough I had to take my bracelets and fitbit off.  The voices subsided, not sure why or what not but I’m just glad.

20 somethings friend is coming to visit in less than a week so I’m excited about that.  It turns out with my fall schedule I can still help babysit my nephew on Mondays like I’ve been doing this summer, so I’m excited about that.

GRE bootcamp has started and it’s a lot of work.  I’m now glad I have a 1/2 day tomorrow because I have an appointment with my case manager.  Next week I’ll be taking a friend from gender group to SF for an appt so I’ll do a 1/2 day or take the full day off, so looking forward to another break again.

Gender Updates

30 Jul

It’s been awhile and I’ve been busy so I haven’t updated as I should.  Two weeks ago I finally got approved for hormone therapy and was waiting for a referral.  That referral came in and I had the appointment with the endocrinologist last Friday.  Instead of deciding to start testosterone immediately, we went with starting to reduce the estrogen to stop my period.  I decided this because that is a big trigger for me for dysphoria and while testosterone will stop your period it can take a while and there will be spotting and irregularities and I don’t think I can deal with that.  I will be on the estrogen reducer for 2-3 months and then start testosterone in 3-4 months.

This is becoming all so real.  I need to sign a wavier for masculizing hormone therapy and on it for risk factors it says losing the support of loved ones, harsh but true in some cases.  Monday I meet with the pharmacist to go over PrEP and then will be prescribed that.  For both PrEP and hormone therapy I had to have blood work done.  I did it at the same time and ended up having about 12 vials taken.  It’s good I use to take Clozaril for a few months and was used to having my blood drawn every two weeks.  I was still a little woozy, probably because it had to be fasting blood work on top of that.

So that’s my update for now.

Fuck I guess you were right

30 Apr

Judging by the last week I’m not stable enough to start hormone therapy, testosterone.  Seriously looking at my mood and how minor events effect it made me realize that they were right as much as I wish it wasn’t true.  Part of it’s frustrating as I don’t have the support to process all the shit going on right now so that’s why I’m having my mood so effected by things.  And that isn’t changing any time soon.  😦  so it’s up to me to learn to cope if I want to “be stable” enough to start hormone therapy.   Time to dust off the DBT skills binder.