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NAMI Walks 2017

14 Mar

NAMI Walks 2017!

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NAMI Walks 2013

Get to know me questions

15 Jan
  1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
    One opened, one closed
  2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
  3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
    Out, can’t stand tucked in sheets, must always unmake the bed it feels claustrophobic
  4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
  5. Do you like to use post-it notes?
    Yes, I collect them in fact
  6. What is your biggest pet peeve?
  7. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
  8. Is it okay for guys to wear pink as a color?

yes, of course

Whats your least favourite movie?

Horror or suspense movies that scare me.
What do you drink with dinner?

What is your favorite food?
Ice cream
what movie could you watch over and over and still love?

Drop Dead Fred
Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
Favourite kind of sandwich?
Chicken Salad
Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Life Cereal or Oatmeal 
What is your usual bedtime?
Are you lazy?
How many languages can you speak?
5, English, Spanish, Italian, French, and ASL- Learning Ancient Greek now
Do you sing in the shower?
No, I take baths and I don’t sing in them either
Is Christmas stressful?
It can be
Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Do you believe in ghosts?
Wear slippers?
Ever been in love?
Who would you like to see in concert?
Bruno Mars and of corse Evercleafr anytime he is near Sac.
Hot tea or cold tea?
Hot tea. 
Tea or coffee?
Ever had plastic surgery?
Do you want to get married?
Do you want kids?
Yes but not bio, don’t want to pass on mental illness and afraid of going off meds and post part psychosis and killing them.
Whats your favourite colour?
Do you miss anyone right now?
Things you cannot leave the house without?
My phone
Do you drink energy drinks?
Yes, red bull
Do you drink juice?
Only POG when in Hawaii or camping 
Do you eat fries with a fork?
Chili cheese fries
Any phobias?
What is your middle name?
What was favorite subject at school?
What is your favorite drink?
What is your favorite song at the moment?
Don’t have one
What is the last thing you bought?
Planner supplies at Michaels
How many siblings do you have?
2 sisters
When was the last time you cried?
Last night
Favourite TV shows?
Netflix Shameless
PC or Mac? I like both have a Macbook pro right now for school
What phone do you have?
An I phone 5
How tall are you?
Can you cook?

Yes, but I’d rather bake

Somewhere between anxiety and panic

16 Sep

I hadn’t thought about the ASD evaluation in awhile because right on it’s heels followed the gender issues. I was very upset that I didn’t get an autistic spectrum diagnosis pretty much because I didn’t meet all the symptoms when I was young and I was a helpful child; although I doubt my mom through in her drinking problem. But I was even helpful before then. It seems all my symptoms appeared in my teenage years and though they impair my functioning mostly social and like regular things since I wasn’t showing symptoms since a baby I’m not autistic. The evaluator said I should be happy, I think he’s an asshole. I’ve never prossessed how I really felt about it because of gender stuff pushing to the center. But when your body and mind don’t work like most of societies it’s hard.
Most the research in ASD is in children. I think that eventually there will be a delayed diagnosis or adult diagnosis ASD. Just like when society thought kids couldn’t have mood disorders and adults would grow out of their attention disorders. 
If any of my followers are on the spectrum or with mental illness in general. How do you cope with big transitions like moving out? Responsible for all your adult daily activities now (shower, teeth brushing, cooking, cleaning)? And scariest socializing?

More waiting

14 Jul

So I had to come clean to my parents about the possible Autistic Spectrum Diagnosis (ASD) Evaluation.  I had my mom fill out a form the specialist gave me to fill out for my primary care giver or parent.  She filled out some and my sister looked over it and thought it was insufficient as my mom was looking through “rose tinted goggles” so she changed some answers and I had her fill out other sections where I knew she knew the answers, aka not the birth-3 years old.  The specialist called the day before I was suppose to have the appointment and need to ask my mom some questions for clarification.  I thought “oh no” and now I gotta tell her the truth.  So I told her about my most recent Sensory Processing Disorder and how I’ve always had the social awkwardness that now seems a little more than just social anxiety and paired with my poor motor skills they think I might be on the Autistic Spectrum.  I also told her when the specialist called not to answer questions with what she thinks I can do but with what I currently do do.  He just asked about 10 questions about when I was a baby and a toddler and now I have to wait a week and a half for results!  I wish this process went faster!

Out with it

22 Jun

Why I asked/my case manager pushed for the Autistic Spectrum Disorder evaluation:

  • I was just in October of 2015 diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorder, even though I have had sensory issues that have made functioning on different levels difficult for as long as I can remember.
  • Problems with eye-contact
  • Don’t shake hands or high 5 because I don’t like people touching the palms of my hands; I just kinda stand there if I don’t know them.  Backwards high 5 people I do know, and have recently became more of a hugger
  • Clumsiness/ motor skills; I fall a lot, and my case manager says I walk funny
  • Bad communication skills in general
  • Awkward social skills
  • Most my life have had one or two friends except high school
  • Will not use the phone, usually have my mom pretend to be me and make calls for me
  • Very small group of things I like to eat and places I will eat those food at and thats all I eat over and over again, don’t try new things.
  • Won’t eat yogurt, jello, cottage cheese, or things with a similar consistency (SPD)
  • Wearing same clothes, like smell and worn-out-ness of already worn clothes.
  • Won’t wear certain fabrics, closed toe shoes, socks, or gloves unless necessary (SPD)
  • Won’t wash, lotion, antibacterial soap, sunscreen or let most liquid touch my lands; occasionally lick them when they feel dry (SPD)
  • Loud music (like at clubs/bars) makes my eyes blink and head spin (SPD)
  • Flashing lights do the same (SPD)


25 May

6 years and 2 days!

It really helps

18 Apr

Sometimes I fear writing out my thoughts, feelings, urges, or behaviors because their “wierd”. Or I feel so strange and then I get comments from bloggers who feel the same way or who have had similar struggles. I get comments of people who wish they could help. Reminds me why I blog.

Lately I’m still confounded by this ASD evaluation that may continue this week. I have made another list of “strange” behaviors to show the therapist. Thing is it’s a kid diagnosis. I don’t remember being a kid. I don’t trust my parents evaluation of me as a kid. I almost wonder if I could of developed something on the spectrum as a teenager but that’s not the way it works. It’s developmental. Well we will see how it goes this week.

Some WordPress Prompts

25 Feb

WordPress Daily Prompt 2/1/16:

You get to choose one superpower. Pick one of these, and explain your choice:

  • the ability to speak and understand any language
  • the ability to travel through time
  • the ability to make any two people agree with each other

Obviously the ability to speak and understand any language.  I plan on majoring in Linguistics and languages and one of my interests and passions.  I currently know 5 different ones to different degrees.

WordPress Daily Prompt 1/19/16:

What do you find more unbearable: watching a video of yourself, or listening to a recording of your voice? Why?

Definitely watching a video of myself because it usually involves me talking too.   That’s why I was really hesitant with the vlog things and when it wasn’t well received or didn’t take off, I stopped.  When having to do videos for class I usually watch the first couple seconds and the last just to make sure it recorded.

WordPress Daily Prompt 1/17/16:

What’s your learning style? Do you prefer learning in a group and in an interactive setting? Or one-on-one? Do you retain information best through lectures, or visuals, or simply by reading books?

I like learning through lectures the best and love school settings.  I don’t like lecture classes that are too large or completely non-interactive.

30 Day Challenge: Day 20

22 Jan


Day 20: Concerts you have attended.  What I remember…

  • Everclear (7 times)
  • Soul Asylum
  • Fall Out Boy and Panic at the Disco
  • Gin Blossoms (twice)
  • Sugar Ray (twice)
  • Smash mouth (twice)
  • Match Box 20
  • Marcy Playground
  • Vertical Horizon
  • Lit
  • Eve 6 (twice)
  • 311
  • Spice Girls
  • Marilyn Manson

30 Day Challenge: Day 9

18 Jan


Day 9: Pet Peeves

Oh my this is a common question.  My pet peeve is that you are asking that again, lol.  People who don’t understand mental illness and throw around terms like I’m OCD like that, he’s so bipolar, that’s so depressing, etc…  People who type in cap locks and regular type in the same words in the same sentence LiKE thIS.  People flossing around me (spd)