Archive | January, 2018

Some more get to know me

31 Jan

1. What is your middle name?

New one, james
2. Share your favorite subject in high school.

Spanish or Math
3. What is your favorite drink?

Water, or red bull
4. What is your favorite song at the moment?

Beautiful trauma by P!NK

5. What would you (or have you) name your children?

I try not to think about this
6. Have you participated in any sports?

soccer and softball as a kid
7. What is your favorite book?

hitchhikers guide to the galaxy
8. What is your favorite color?

Blue, purple
9. What is your favorite animal?

Dogs
10. What is your favorite perfume?

none, sensory processing disorder
11. What is your favorite holiday?

Halloween
12. On a scale from 1 10, rate your childhood. Don’t remember enough of it to give an accurate score

13. Have you been out of the country?

Yes, Canada, Mexico, Cancun, Australia, Caymen Islands
14. Do you speak any different languages?

Spanish, American Sign Language, Italian, Some French and Ancient Greek
15. Do you have any siblings?

two
16. What is your favorite store?

Michaels or any craft store
17. What is your favorite restaurant?

I have a few usuals, they are small unique restraints and not chains
18. Did you like school?

yes
19. Who are some of your favorite YouTubers?

Don’t watch youtube

20. What is your favorite movie?

Drop Dead Fred

21. What are some of your favorite tv shows?

I don’t watch a lot of TV

22. PC or mac?

Mac
23. What phone do you have?

I have the I phone six

24. How tall are you?

5′ 6″
25. Do you have any pets?

No, but my sister does

Therapy, Trans Update, and all

17 Jan

So I apparently had to have an appointment with the therapist and couldn’t just stop seeing her without talking to her about it, and if I did stop seeing her I would just need to see someone else.  Because apparently now I always have to be seeing a therapist, when this happened I did not know, but I call bullshit but not really have the time or the space, so I’ll play their game for now.

I told the therapist all the reasons I think I should’ve been cleared to study abroad she told me the two hesitations she had, I said I maintain my stance she said same with her.  Not like changing their mind now would help anyways.  Apparently they seem to think you shouldn’t need therapy to be able to go abroad, lol.  We’ll show them.

I did talk to my dad, it went surprisingly well.  He didn’t scream or call me names or anything.  Although he did open the conversation with “Is this about your sex change operation” which was inappropriate and misguided in many ways.  The conversation went with him saying he “won’t stand in my way.” Because I don’t stand in him.  What’s amazing about that is #1 He realizes I don’t agree with what he does #2 he sees I try to keep quiet about it or just let him be #3He’s always tried to get involved with my psych treatment.  We’ll see if it holds but I hope it does.

Looking into the future and it looks like a fork, trying to figure out the right way I guess.  Hinted at some unspoken things at counseling, maybe working on them but I don’t want to destabilize.  Working on expressing feelings, might be overrated.