About to implode

25 Aug

Feeling like I’m about to implode.  Kinda reached out to two people without results.  I took my night meds, if they aren’t enough to calm me down.  I’ll take one of my 2 Valium left with some NyQuil.  I have a planner thing to do tomorrow.  But being in crisis all night won’t be good for that either- and it will just get me in trouble down the road.  My case manager won’t like me self medicating but this shit has to stop and they’re cutting appointments and I’m not coping as well as I normally can.  It’s childhood PTSD, which I guess is better than the sex PTSD.  But PTSD nonetheless.  I barely ate today.  I’m either trying to always sleep or can’t.  uhhhh it’s too much right now to the point that i can’t even blog.

4 Responses to “About to implode”

  1. G. Collerone August 26, 2017 at 5:37 AM #

    If there’s anything I can do, I’m here

    • mm172001 August 26, 2017 at 7:04 PM #

      I’m feeling better talked to a friend, thanks

  2. manyofus1980 August 26, 2017 at 2:34 PM #

    Hugs for you Marci, this is so hard, PTSD really sucks

    • mm172001 August 26, 2017 at 7:04 PM #

      at least it comes in waves

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