Gender Identity

24 Jul

I’m thinking more about my gender identity issues and where I want to be in 5 years or more so what I want to look like and how I want to feel about my body and mind.  Yesterday I researched top surgery, initially I was just thinking about getting a double mastectomy because I don’t like my breasts.  But as I think more and as I explore more I am considering top surgery so if I wan’t to identify more along the male lines I will have a more male looking upper body than just no breasts.

It was interesting that there were two types of surgery depending on how big your breasts are, since mine are C or bigger I would have a certain surgery.  I also would need to lose some weight so I have started to exercise and watch what I am eating.

One of the things I’m not looking forward to is that this is something I will need to address with the therapist and I’m not that comfortable with her.  Also I only see her once a month and I’m not sure about containing the dysphoria in-between appointments.  I also worry working on it will destabilize me and cause me to have to quit UC Davis.


3 Responses to “Gender Identity”

  1. thefeatheredsleep July 24, 2016 at 1:09 PM #

    really hard but really important to think of where you want to be in the future, rather than just thinking of ‘now’ and I think that’s a really good way to approach any of this because you must try to imagine how you feel in the future to ensure you make the right calls for YOU

    • mm172001 July 24, 2016 at 5:54 PM #

      Thanks for the feedback

      • thefeatheredsleep July 25, 2016 at 12:19 PM #

        It is my pleasure ! xxxx

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