The power of no words

23 Feb

My relationship with my mom has always been strange. She’s never been the motherly type. Often growing up and even up until a few years ago I excused her behavior as her “being in her own little world.”  It’s definitely emotional neglect. She’s better now, but still slips into it like tonight. Where I crave some human interaction but all she wants to do is stare at the computer screen, give one word answers, and sigh. My cue to leave. I cry. I feel insignificant and unimportant. After all these years you think I would have accepted this or gotten over it, apparently not. Still want to be loved, still want attention. 

2 Responses to “The power of no words”

  1. manyofus1980 February 23, 2016 at 11:21 PM #

    thats normal marcie? I’d be thinking there was something wrong if you didnt want to be loved or want attention. I’m sorry she cant give you what you so desperately crave. XX

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  1. Making sense | Marci, Mental Health, & More - February 24, 2016

    […] The other night, my mom was blowing me off and I felt unloved and insignificant.  It sent me down, but not into an emotional spiral like it would have in the past.  I was trying to cope with it and the ensuing feeling of loneliness and insignificance.  I texted my sister to see about going over to see her and the dog, but she had a meeting to go to and since I had just been crying and emotional, I didn’t want to go with just her husband and the dog.  20 somethings friend was at the closer college for chemistry club so I texted him to see if he wanted to meet up for ice cream, after club ended.  I was still feeling sorta desperate and even put a status update on my Facebook, even though it was my “lesser” Facebook. […]

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