Today I saw the therapist. I was mentioning how yesterday was a really good day, if you follow my Facebook page for my blog I had updated my status to “feeling jazzed.” Usually I am stressed at the beginning of a semester and it is not uncommon to be on the verge of making a decision to be hospitalized. I always tell myself stick it through the first few weeks and if you still feel this way then you can go to the hospital and it won’t have as much of an effect on school. Maybe anxiety, self sabotaging, I don’t know. On top of this semester staring yesterday, my first class was a Fitness- Walking Class. I despise exercise but need it for my general ed on my AA degree. The Orientation was pleasant and I’m looking forward to the motivation and structure to walk twice a week for an hour, and also hoping to lose a little weight. In the end of the evening I ended up going to dinner and dessert with 20 something friend. It was nice to catch up before our school schedules go crazy on us. I also just realized today he was giving me some dating advice and now that I realize he had and analyzed it it makes good sense, good advice.
So I mentioned to the therapist that maybe I should write down days that happen like this so I can go back when as she says everything is all “doom and gloom.” So I will document some of that here and some I may do handwritten in a journal. Today was also good. Not the jazzed feeling of yesterday but a good day. I went to two of my core classes and got to figure out how they were going to go. I was a little disappointed that there were no test dates scheduled and they are announced a week or so beforehand because I like to write things down in my planner. Even though they usually get moved anyways. High school friend won a case so we are suppose to celebrate and go to dinner tonight but she is running late so maybe later tonight or another day.