Even though I wasn’t quite sure what this hashtag meant or where it came from I was jealous. I’m always envious of people who have a large close knit group of friends. I had that in high school and I miss it. While I also know it’s not very likely to have a large close knit group of friends after high school, the media plays on it. In the last year I thought with the 20 somethings group that maybe I had mastered the elusive #squadgoals but in my gut I never felt it. I constantly wondered if most of these people are/were real friends. I over analyzer do and dissected it again and again. The squad has broken into little fragments and part of me is upset but I think I’m starting to let go. It’s not likely at my age (33) that you regularly get together with a group of 5 or more people to hang out with. Life happens and surprisingly it’s even happening to me. Truth is I was never a #squadqirl. I’m just about trying to make everyone feel included and that meant events with a lot of different people, most of which got a long. I wasn’t reciprocally invited often and that’s what made me doubt the “realness” of my friends. But I’m happy with a couple close friends. I’m afraid of starting over again.
Marci, Mental Health, & More
Marci- Me a 32 year old gay female living in California in the United States.
Mental Health- I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar type. I blog about my own experience with mental health as well as resources, research, and re-blogs relating to mental health.
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