12 Jan

Even though I wasn’t quite sure what this hashtag meant or where it came from I was jealous. I’m always envious of people who have a large close knit group of friends. I had that in high school and I miss it. While I also know it’s not very likely to have a large close knit group of friends after high school, the media plays on it. In the last year I thought with the 20 somethings group that maybe I had mastered the elusive #squadgoals but in my gut I never felt it. I constantly wondered if most of these people are/were real friends. I over analyzer do and dissected it again and again.  The squad has broken into little fragments and part of me is upset but I think I’m starting to let go. It’s not likely at my age (33) that you regularly get together with a group of 5 or more people to hang out with. Life happens and surprisingly it’s even happening to me. Truth is I was never a #squadqirl. I’m just about trying to make everyone feel included and that meant events with a lot of different people, most of which got a long. I wasn’t reciprocally invited often and that’s what made me doubt the “realness” of my friends. But I’m happy with a couple close friends. I’m afraid of starting over again.

2 Responses to “#SQUADGOALS”

  1. manyofus1980 January 14, 2016 at 11:32 AM #

    I never heard of this hashtag! Until you posted it! I’m not a squad type person either. XX

    • mm172001 January 15, 2016 at 11:37 AM #

      I’m just jealous of those that are, I just need to keep in mind how rare it is.

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