The Power of Words and New Year’s Intentions

1 Jan

I just read my New Year’s post from last year.  I was trying to see if I documented any of my New Year’s Intentions.  I call them intentions instead of resolutions because they are things I intend on accomplishing in the year.  No that last years blog was a wrap up of 2014 and now I feel the need for a wrap up of 2015, but later.  Seriously though, read that 2014 post.

I’ve had a hard time expressing my feelings since I can remember.  It always seemed unsafe and a disadvantage.  I thought if people knew I loved and cared about them, they would use this information to manipulate or guilt me.  I thought it would give them the power.  My thinking has done some refreshing this last year and around Christmas time I decided I’d like to verbally tell a few people that I loved them.  I had written it in cards and the people knew, it was more something I wanted to do for myself.  Christmas I was unable to, had plans a few times but was too anxious.  Tonight I told my sister and 20 somethings friend that I loved them and I actually used the words “I love you.”  It was sort of freeing.  I put a lot of stock in words, sincerity, and being genuine.

On to New Year’s Intentions as I was writing them this afternoon along with the looming thought of saying those three little words I was surprised.  I really could only think of three: 1. Travel somewhere international 2. Travel to New York 3. Transfer to a 4 year university.  Nothing on my mind about self care and mental health or even surviving which have so often been the themes of new year’s intentions.  It’s almost like a normal person wrote them!

Last years were: 1. Work on personal hygiene. 2.  Take and pass 3 classes. 3. Go for at least 3 dates within a 3 month time period. 4. Go on at least a 5 minute walk everyday.  For the most part I have improved drastically in personal hygiene, yeah I still have some to work on but it’s amazing to brush my teeth and not have to remind myself it’s something I have to do.  I passed all 3 of my spring classes without having to withdraw, same for the 2 fall classes I took.  I had a girlfriend for the month of January and part of February so that changed the dating scene.  I have been going on walks with my sister pretty consistently since summer, I’m trying to get where I’m okay going for walks alone, but not there yet.

2015 was better than 2014, that prior post was correct in predicting that.  More to come in a soon to be released Year in Review.

2 Responses to “The Power of Words and New Year’s Intentions”

  1. manyofus1980 January 5, 2016 at 7:41 AM #

    You did well way to go! Its good to look back. XX

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