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Update

15 Dec

The extra Latuda has helped quell the psychosis. I still feel incredibly down and like people are throwing rocks at my stomach. I regret that I can go there, with little provocation. It’s a part of me, I don’t like to admit exists. When you are fighting reality curled up in bed, blasting music, and just trying to get through it. Never mind making any sense of it, there’s non to be made. I didn’t self harm, I took my final, and tried to be there for my mom as she celebrates her bday. Not sure if I can handle another episode of this. And now I only have half my Latuda for Sat night.  

15 Dec

I don’t really know what this is or what it’s coming from but man is it disturbing and horrifying. Good thing I don’t have counseling tomorrow, she’d put me in the hospital. I just took an extra 40mg Latuda and if it still doesn’t let up I’m willing to use my last two previous valiums. 

Voices

15 Dec

The voices are being horrific right now.  I just want to go in bed and cry.