Emotional evening. 

8 Dec

It’s been an emotional evening. I was dealing with a trigger that I couldn’t figure out other than to urge surf it. I tried contacting my sister but she didn’t reply till an hour later, when it has passed. I’m not sure about bringing this thing up with the therapist. I’m not sure I can trust her and I don’t think I can be vulnerable and honest without that trust. Hospitalization has also been in the back of my mind. If I think I need to do it, winter break would be the best time. There’s lots of surgeries and vacations taking place in the next month. That’s pushing me away too. My grandpa is having open heart surgery, I’m not to close to him but the thought of me being in the hospital causing him to die is in my mind because I was in the hospital when my aunt died. I know it’s probably just my weird thinking tying things together that maybe should not. But the thoughts there.

2 Responses to “Emotional evening. ”

  1. manyofus1980 December 9, 2015 at 2:49 AM #

    Hugs. I hope you don’t go to the hospital. Thinking of you. XX

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