I’ve deleted my last posts over the last few days and won’t respond to any of those comments. Both my Facebook accounts are deactivated, sorry to those that have tried to contact me through there. When I shut down, I shut everyone out and I’m trying to learn not to do it. Not to destroy everything because I’m in too much pain and feel misunderstood.
I’m slowly coming out of it. And putting the pieces back together. Luckily it’s not too late to still apply for UC Davis and the other UCs. I have 2 days. I didn’t drop my classes (this time.). So I just need to finish out these two weeks and finals. I also didn’t alter next semesters class either. I tried to destroy the most important relationship but luckily am forgiven for what I’ve said.
I still feel super overwhelmed and emotional from the last couple days. I wasn’t really eating or out on bed either. Baby steps. Today I’m taking Gibby for a walk and hanging out with my sister some. I’m not worrying about transferring stuff till tomorrow and I’ll make sure it’s done by the end of studying. I don’t know how copy and paste and just a few clicks can generate so much anxiety.