I don’t let myself be consoled by very many people. The act of getting there means they truly know me and I have to be vulnerable. People know sometimes when I’m upset but I won’t engage with them. I don’t want you to know what’s wrong. I don’t want you to help me. I don’t want you to comfort me.
It’s kind of a bad trait to have and it leaves me feeling alone often and like I can’t talk to anyone. Also, sometimes someone will want to console me and I’m like no I want this person. Then sometimes there is blips in those relationships and then I feel like there is even less options.