I feel like I should say something

7 Oct

Things are chaotic right now.  Every time I see something about the Oregon community college shooting I’m triggered but at the same time can’t look away.  The voices have been back intermittently fighting with each other about mass shootings which makes it hard to concentrate.  One voice suggests I kill myself so the other voices won’t convince me to kill others.  Note: This is all talk and I have no intention or desire to act out what these voices say, neither is it the first time it’s came up so I do know how to handle it if it gets dangerous.  However, what is new this time is the voice about suicide calling me a hero. It’s strange and I’m afraid of scaring people or it being misinterpreted.

Along with the voices, I’ve been incredibly apathetic and feel empty inside.  This has lead to my lack of blogging and me wondering if I should stop blogging all together.  There seems to be no purpose to anything so I can’t even get motivation to study.  And just my luck it’s during midterms week.  Sometimes it seems the world is conspiring against me, and I mean this in a non paranoid kind of way.

Anyways, I don’t have much to say.

One Response to “I feel like I should say something”

  1. manyofus1980 October 7, 2015 at 10:39 PM #

    I feel that way about the world too sometimes. Sorry things are so bad right now. Sending supportive hugs your way. Keep on fighting! XX

I'l love to hear your thoughts

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: