6 Oct

The uneasiness is still there and now I’m feeling a lack of connection.  Connection keeps me alive.  I’ve slept all day practically yesterday, recovering from the Disneyland trip.  I debated closing this blog down.  I feel like a couple years ago I had a community that would comment and we’d help each other through life’s ups and downs.  I don’t feel like that anymore and that’s one reason why I’m thinking about stopping blogging.  Another is that I don’t feel like I’m reaching anyone.  Blogging seems pointless.

I feel disconnected in real life too.  I am again doubting my ability to transfer.  This week I don’t see my case manager unless I message her tomorrow asking for an emergency appointment.  I’m jealous of the bloggers who see their therapists more often or get hugs or stuff like that.  Things have been rough but I’m not sure I want to divulge  or even if there would be a point to it.

It all seems pointless and I’m having trouble staying above water.

7 Responses to “10/6/15”

  1. Joyce October 6, 2015 at 11:30 AM #

    I never know what to say, other than I read your blog and am here to listen. I wish I could help more. I hope you don’t stop blogging. I think you have a lot to contribute. I’m sure there are others out there who feel the same way. (Hugs) ❤

  2. Andi October 6, 2015 at 6:09 PM #

    I hope you keep your blog. I don’t always know what to say but it’s important that you have a place to share.

  3. Louise Sutherland-Hoyt October 7, 2015 at 5:55 AM #

    Keep it going.

  4. manyofus1980 October 7, 2015 at 10:21 PM #

    I’ve felt similarly about my blog. It seems a lot of bloggers who used to blog now dont. I guess we have to thank those who do read and comment or like our posts. They care and think our words matter. I certainly think your words matter and love hearing what you have to say. XX

    • mm172001 October 8, 2015 at 10:06 AM #

      I guess, it just makes me sad

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