23 Sep


A quick update with a longer one later.  I’ve been discouraged lately.  I’ve also had a lot of anxiety/doubt/panic which is just wearing me down.  I feel like I can’t deal with the little triggers of life because I’m already so exhausted and have used all my resources for just getting through the day.  I didn’t end up self harming last night.  I didn’t really reach out because it seems I just keep getting let down.  My case manager again said to message her if I needed an appointment between the next two appointments as she can cancel a meeting.  Last time she said she would fit me in and she didn’t so I feel weary about asking again.  I was also suppose to do a DBT exercise on assertiveness that failed because of circumstances, and now this weeks homework is to do another exercise- this one I’ll focus on saying no instead of asking– since asking doesn’t seem to be working.  I know my circumstances suck so it makes it hard to put the skills into practice.  Plus I’m even more vulnerable now.  I don’t know where this is going, but thanks to the people that showed concern last night and I am doing okay-ish.

4 Responses to “Update”

  1. La Quemada September 23, 2015 at 7:14 PM #

    I’m glad you are hanging in there. It’s so, so hard to feel what you’re experiencing. My thoughts are with you.

  2. Secret Stains September 23, 2015 at 7:49 PM #

    It sucks being in the place you are at right now. I know because I’ve been there myself. Hang in there. Hold on to whatever you can to keep your head above ground. You got this!

  3. manyofus1980 September 25, 2015 at 3:44 AM #

    so glad your hanging in there. safe hugs. keep going you will make it I know you will. XX

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