Mud

14 Sep

I feel like I’m just trudging through the mud.  I got up and did the things I had to do today.  My stomach in not happy and my heart feels hollow.  Craving some kind of connection.  I’m still getting comments on my World Suicide Prevention pages.  What’s important in life isn’t how much money you have/make, your status, what you have, I think it’s really about relationships and human connections and I’m not feeling that.  I’m trying to do my hobbies but nothing seems fun or good.  This is the second day, I hope this is just BPD depression and not another full blown mood episode.  I want someone to hold me and tell me it’s going to be okay.  I want to laugh, instead of crying right now.  I want my heart to feel full instead of hollow.  I don’t think it’s too much to ask, but I won’t, and nobody ever offers.

One Response to “Mud”

  1. manyofus1980 September 14, 2015 at 2:15 PM #

    offering my support, an ear if you need it. XX

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