I feel like I’m just trudging through the mud. I got up and did the things I had to do today. My stomach in not happy and my heart feels hollow. Craving some kind of connection. I’m still getting comments on my World Suicide Prevention pages. What’s important in life isn’t how much money you have/make, your status, what you have, I think it’s really about relationships and human connections and I’m not feeling that. I’m trying to do my hobbies but nothing seems fun or good. This is the second day, I hope this is just BPD depression and not another full blown mood episode. I want someone to hold me and tell me it’s going to be okay. I want to laugh, instead of crying right now. I want my heart to feel full instead of hollow. I don’t think it’s too much to ask, but I won’t, and nobody ever offers.
Marci, Mental Health, & More
Marci- Me a 32 year old gay female living in California in the United States.
Mental Health- I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar type. I blog about my own experience with mental health as well as resources, research, and re-blogs relating to mental health.
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My Favorite Posts
Guest Post on Bipolar for Life Breaking the Silence of Stigma: Not What You'd Expect
Changes and My Identity in Mental Illness Object Permanence
Sexuality and Mental Illness Intertwined Mad Pride? Gay Pride? Identity...
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