and getting very anxious. My top school fasga says has a 5% acceptance rate, the school site not much better says 30% My number 2 school recommends a GPA or 3.66 or above. My assist (community college grades) are an 3.8 but everything is like a 3.4 or something. I wish I never went to the Christian private university. I wish I could just erase those couple years from my life. Nothing good came out of them. All I remember is even more being forced that homosexuality is a sin, crap. The sexual assault with fiancée. The end of ECT. And feeling like I was in a place where I didn’t belong and few understood me. When I told PK I think I’m gay and she’s never communicated with me since. Which led me further into the closet. Since getting ECT and involved with psych programs an hour and a half from school, I didn’t get good grades. At least not as good as I expect from myself. And looking back their all bull shit classes that won’t even transfer. So mad. How did I let myself get so brainwashed. Why would I go so far for my first love who decides never to speak to me again after I come out. I know parts my BPD symptoms that frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. That lack of a stable identity. Just angry and sad for what for nothing.
Marci, Mental Health, & More
Marci- Me a 32 year old gay female living in California in the United States.
Mental Health- I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar type. I blog about my own experience with mental health as well as resources, research, and re-blogs relating to mental health.
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My Favorite Posts
Guest Post on Bipolar for Life Breaking the Silence of Stigma: Not What You'd Expect
Changes and My Identity in Mental Illness Object Permanence
Sexuality and Mental Illness Intertwined Mad Pride? Gay Pride? Identity...
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