The Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Diagnosis

24 Aug

After this last hospitalization was also the first time I had ever been diagnosed with PTSD. The diagnosis wasn’t as surprising as the sensory processing disorder. I’ve always been told I have a lot of trauma issues.  I am also on a medication for PTSD like nightmares. 

The only question I have. Which I’ll never ask is: what trauma were they referring to when they gave me the diagnosis. Like I said in my earlier posts on my other diagnosis, they just give you the sheet on the way out the door. 

Another oddity is that my inpatient psychiatrist had about an hour long discussion with my dad. He called my dad and I know they talked about my ECT, but surely that couldn’t have lasted a whole hour. It’s also doubtful that he spoke of the dysfunction growing up, which is one trauma.  He’s never let on that he knows any other trauma and I think he thinks we didn’t have it the best growing up but wouldn’t call it abuse. 

The other possibility is that they used the sexual assault for the diagnosis. I doubt that, I’ve been honest about it for the last three or four hospitalizations and it was never there before. Plus they asked no details or if I had any symptoms relating to it. 

There is also my speculations of sexual abuse but how would they know anything about that. The hospitalizations involve groups and learning skills. I’ve never talked to anyone individually, but whenever they ask I say I don’t know because of my memory gaps. 

And lastly, but I don’t want to rule anything out. With the new diagnosis sheets and the doing away with the axis system he asked about stress. And I said nothing other than having to continue to battle mental illness all my life. And that is on my discharge paperwork.  

6 Responses to “The Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Diagnosis”

  1. Andi August 24, 2015 at 4:37 PM #

    Diagnoses are just symptoms grouped together with a label. They might not know the exact trauma itself, but feel you met enough of the criteria for PTSD to be relevant.

    • mm172001 August 24, 2015 at 7:42 PM #

      I know. It’s just odd after all these years.

      • Andi August 24, 2015 at 9:34 PM #

        Yeah it really is. Why do you not want to ask?

        • mm172001 August 24, 2015 at 9:43 PM #

          Partly afraid of the answer. And it’s just my personality to not ask questions or challenge people.

  2. manyofus1980 August 30, 2015 at 3:50 PM #

    I would want an answer. I think for me having answers makes things clearer. And there is closure then too? On why I am how I am? XX

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