After this last hospitalization was also the first time I had ever been diagnosed with PTSD. The diagnosis wasn’t as surprising as the sensory processing disorder. I’ve always been told I have a lot of trauma issues. I am also on a medication for PTSD like nightmares.
The only question I have. Which I’ll never ask is: what trauma were they referring to when they gave me the diagnosis. Like I said in my earlier posts on my other diagnosis, they just give you the sheet on the way out the door.
Another oddity is that my inpatient psychiatrist had about an hour long discussion with my dad. He called my dad and I know they talked about my ECT, but surely that couldn’t have lasted a whole hour. It’s also doubtful that he spoke of the dysfunction growing up, which is one trauma. He’s never let on that he knows any other trauma and I think he thinks we didn’t have it the best growing up but wouldn’t call it abuse.
The other possibility is that they used the sexual assault for the diagnosis. I doubt that, I’ve been honest about it for the last three or four hospitalizations and it was never there before. Plus they asked no details or if I had any symptoms relating to it.
There is also my speculations of sexual abuse but how would they know anything about that. The hospitalizations involve groups and learning skills. I’ve never talked to anyone individually, but whenever they ask I say I don’t know because of my memory gaps.
And lastly, but I don’t want to rule anything out. With the new diagnosis sheets and the doing away with the axis system he asked about stress. And I said nothing other than having to continue to battle mental illness all my life. And that is on my discharge paperwork.