Ah ha moment

16 Aug

As I was messaging 20 somethings friend and my dad was throwing a fit about our room, after we already messed around with it in the lobby. I don’t know if I was asked what was bothering me directly or if I just had to put words tout in the message. 

When my dad gets irritated and disappointed it’s a real bad trigger for me. This happens often. I never considered why till today. It brings me back to childhood where I could never do anything right and I was such a disappointment. I think I’m just going to try to accept it as part of his personality and even put a positive spin on it, that he has ridiculously high standards for getting what he wants. So it’s not personal, more global. 

5 Responses to “Ah ha moment”

  1. manyofus1980 August 17, 2015 at 12:41 AM #

    Its hard when your triggered. Its positive that you can still think clearly when triggered. Good for you for making it into a positive thing. XX

  2. Lonelyjean August 17, 2015 at 3:42 AM #

    I realised the exact same as you recently, except my situation is a little different with my fly by Father dropping in on odd occasions to bring me down. I realised about a week ago that I cannot do it anymore, he triggers me and I never even knew, how to move forward, I do not know.

    I think it’s fantastic that you have turned it into something positive XXX

    • mm172001 August 17, 2015 at 6:22 AM #

      Thank you. It’s odd when a behavior has bugged us so much and we never knew why. Hopefully with the why now I’ll be less triggered.

  3. Melanie August 17, 2015 at 5:44 PM #

    hey wow! That’s such a great realisation and wonderful way to look at it. I hope that does make his behaviour less triggering for you, if you can manage that way of thinking about it I’m sure it will! 🙂

    • mm172001 August 18, 2015 at 7:56 PM #

      I hope so too. Even if it doesn’t it’s still nice to have those moments where something makes sense finally.

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