Today 8/13/15

13 Aug

I’m feeling a little less overwhelmed today.  Still tired, I think a cross from an intense counseling session and having my period.  My case manager wants me to focus on specific parts of things I’m dealing with instead of the big picture.  I understand that but it’s hard because they are all painful and have their own intense emotions attached.  But when I look at the big picture I get incredibly anxious, overwhelmed, and suicidal so I guess it makes sense.  I kind of decided on working with the realization that 20 something’s friend is going to move in about a year.  I started crying hysterically and she worked on grounding me which took probably 5-10 minutes.  I tell her I try to fill out the observe/describe emotion DBT worksheets but the intensity didn’t go down at all.  She talked about having to be in the moment with the feelings as much as you can; because when you avoid them they will just come back stronger next time their triggered.  That I agree with.  I read her my blog about wanting someone to comfort me and again it was reinforced that I need to learn how to do that for myself.  I feel like I’m barely surviving and just treading water most days, how in the hell am I suppose to comfort myself when I’m already struggling to just do the basics.  Speaking of, I brushed my teeth today- that’s an accomplishment.

6 Responses to “Today 8/13/15”

  1. Joyce August 13, 2015 at 5:22 PM #

    Yay for brushing your teeth! That’s more than I can do most days.

    • mm172001 August 13, 2015 at 7:00 PM #

      I’m horrible about it! Lil sis is a dental assistant so I’m always getting reprimanded

  2. Li August 16, 2015 at 8:23 PM #

    So true about staying with the feelings in the moment so they don’t come back even more intense… I’m also working on that.
    And yay too for brushing your teeth!!

    • mm172001 August 17, 2015 at 6:23 AM #

      Thanks. Yeah it’s hard to do it but much worse later so I keep trying to tell myself that.

  3. manyofus1980 August 24, 2015 at 2:03 AM #

    yay for good days and good accomplishments so proud of you! glad the counselling apt went well too. XX

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