I’m not good with relationships and I don’t handle rejection/being left out/abandoned/judged any of that well. I’m having a real hard time staying committed to being a 20 something’s facilitator. I’m upset that they have me on the schedule for next week and I won’t be here. I’m trying to trouble shot that but no one has responded. Yes I know it’s Facebook. I don’t really want to go to group tomorrow, it is a potluck which means more of a social night. But I need to go and solve the problem of next week. The idea of that and that I’m suppose to be co-facilitating a group where me and the girl haven’t came up with a game plan is stressing me out. I can’t sleep. I’m going through all the people who go/have been to group and judging them. That’s not a normal Marci thing to do. I’m not sure what to do anymore. I feel like if I step down, I will be abandoning the obligation I signed up for a year ago. If I go on for these next three months I feel like my mental health will suffer. I don’t know the middle ground and I’m sure no one else sees this as serious. I just feel stuck and now I can’t sleep.
Marci, Mental Health, & More
Marci- Me a 32 year old gay female living in California in the United States.
Mental Health- I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar type. I blog about my own experience with mental health as well as resources, research, and re-blogs relating to mental health.
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My Favorite Posts
Guest Post on Bipolar for Life Breaking the Silence of Stigma: Not What You'd Expect
Changes and My Identity in Mental Illness Object Permanence
Sexuality and Mental Illness Intertwined Mad Pride? Gay Pride? Identity...
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