27 Jul

I went to Santa Cruz on Friday with lil sis to see a free concert of Soul Asylum, they sing “Run Away Train.”  On Thursday before we left the neighbors came over and the mom had commented the baby was sick or just getting over being sick.  He was playing with my iphone and laptop, because that little guy loves electronics.  I never get sick so I didn’t worry about it, low and behold I got sick.

It didn’t start to hit me until Friday night so I enjoyed most of the day in Santa Cruz at the boardwalk as well as the concert.  We left sort of early Saturday.  Lil sis wanted to stay in Capitola for the day but I already had the horrible headache which kicked off this sickness.  I humored her a bit (I’m sucking up trying to get her to go to Disneyland with me for Halloween).  Then we left.  My brother-in-law was working so it was finally a chance for me to watch Orange Is The New Black with my sister.  We watched like 4 episodes.  I went home and took some Nyquil and went to sleep.

I slept through Sunday, along with it taking Sunday night’s pills.

Today is Monday and I am feeling a little better (physical sick wise) but mentally/emotionally/psychologically I’m a wreck from missing last nights meds.  I spent like an hour crying, debating about going to the hospital soon, what to do about the upcoming road trip with 20 something’s friend (plus other guy now) and just how to deal with him moving eventually anyways.  Back suicidal again and just wanting to cut everything out.  I got up and took the morning meds that helped a little.  I’m still sleepy and weak so laying in bed allows my mind to wander.  I wish I had someone to distract me.  It’s 20 something’s friends finals week so I’m trying to be not needy and then theres the BPD part that’s still upset about the trip and doesn’t even want to go.

2 Responses to “Sick”

  1. manyofus1980 July 27, 2015 at 11:01 PM #

    I hope you feel better soon. Being sick is no fun. The concert sounded cool though. I loved the song runaway train when it was out years ago. It was one of my faves. XX

    • mm172001 July 28, 2015 at 11:17 AM #

      Yeah kind of a one hit wonder, but they played it twice.

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