24 Jun

I stayed in bed most of yesterday after about 2 or so. I lost it again and I have yet to find it. They’re telling me not to ask for help, everything is so confusing. First get help then leave people alone. Because of crashing out last night I didn’t take those pills, probably not helping.  Today has been a trance but in the bath tub instead of bed. I can’t explain the utter loneliness I feel. But that’s how it’s supposed to be. Only can count on yourself and if yourself is crazy, well you’re fucked. I wonder why I keep trying, keep getting “better ” to be ripped away. I may disappear for awhile it only feels appropriate. 

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  1. manyofus1980 June 25, 2015 at 12:51 PM #

    So sorry your feeling so bad. Do what you need to feel safe. I’ll still be here when you come back. XX

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