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Feeling…

19 Jun

Feeling insecure and anxious.
Usual behavior: try to get someone to convince me I have no reason to be insecure or anxious. Other usual behavior: text person till I feel more confident that’s everything’s all right or ask if everything’s all right.
Opposite action: go to bed. Assume everything’s okay because we’re going somewhere together tomorrow night. Assume everything’s okay because there was a little bit of a message conversation tonight. Guess he might be stressed about summer school, so acting a little different. Be supportive. Don’t bug a lot. Stop worrying so much.

Stop the Stigma

19 Jun

Song Lyrics: Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls

19 Jun

And I’d give up forever to touch you
‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
When sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t wanna miss you tonight

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you’re alive

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

DBT: ABC Exercise

19 Jun

Not many people voted in the poll yesterday, of what you would like to see more of on this blog.  Feel free to go and vote here.  More information on Borderline Personality Disorder was the highest with three votes, so here is a resource from my DBT class last week.

Accumulate Positives:  This letter of the skill is about having a bank account of positive experiences that you have been saving up to make a withdrawal from when you need to balance out an upsetting situation.

Build Mastery: This component of the skill is about thinking about or doing something that you are good at.  By thinking about or doing something you are good at.  By thinking or doing something you are good at, you are facilitating healthy self-esteem.  This boosts your confidence to get through times that are difficult.

Cope Ahead:  Develop plans to deal with expected and unexpected difficulties.  Note: Cope Ahead doesn’t always work, so use the accumulate positives.  It is about your willing to try something, but try not to get too attached to the outcome.

Some examples:

Accumulate positives: setting up social events that go well, compliments from friends, going to Disneyland, getting good grades on an assignment.

Build Mastery: creative endeavors, making scrapbooks, working on my smash journal, blogging, school related stuff.

Cope Ahead:  If I have an upcoming counseling session that I think will be tough I can ask a friend to hang out afterword.  Practicing or rehearsing tough conversations.  Scheduling a massage after/during a big/stressful project .
*note some things can overlap in categories