24 May

ive been really busy these last couple days. The family is camping for Memorial Day, I’ve had some friends come up, my parents and lil sis, her boyfriend and part of their family is her, my dads friend, his brother, daighter and her friend are here. The neighbors came up for the day. Lots of people coming and going. Yesterday 5 of my friends came to go boating. And last night I went home for the night to go to a music festival Everclear was playing at with 20 somethings friend. I’m disappointed I didn’t have a very good day yesterday, of course I tried to act like I was having fun but felt more on the blah side. Last night I woke up from a bad dream at 5am where I felt empty, rejected, and lonely. It kept me up for at least another half hour before I could get back to sleep. I’ve been trying to hang around the people but I really feel like hiding away. Last night after the music festival we met some friends at a bar and I realized I feel like a lost child when I’m at a bar or club and just stop trying to force myself to like it or even tolerate it. I feel a breakdown coming but maybe I’m just being pessimistic.

3 Responses to “Update”

  1. manyofus1980 May 24, 2015 at 11:06 PM #

    I hope you’ll be ok. Its good your trying to keep busy, keep your mind occupied. Hopefully it will help things and you wont have a breakdown. XX

  2. fallenangel092014emily67 May 25, 2015 at 3:13 AM #

    so sorry you didn’t have such a good day.

    what sort of music was at the music festival?.

    i love music of all types, though i’ve never been to a festival or anything like that

    btw, it’s nice to be able to follow your blog. glad to join in. šŸ™‚

    • mm172001 May 25, 2015 at 8:02 AM #

      It sorta sucks when you have a day filled with “fun activities” but don’t feel that great. It was a variety of bands but I went to see Eve 6 and Everclear. Everclear is my favorite band of all time.

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