The Borderline Personality Diagnosis

22 May

Im not really sure when I was diagnosed with BPD. Probably right at 18, but no one ever told me. Which is pretty typical for people diagnosed with BPD. I was even put in a year long DBT program without ever being told why.

I meet all the criteria or have at some point. As a teenager you could probably classify me as the typical borderline. I still have enough criteria to still be diagnosed with BPD. I prefer to call myself an “internal borderline” because most of my symptoms are hidden or go on inside me.

The biggest thing is the fear of abandonment and that symptom doesn’t fit anywhere else. My mood symptoms can be BPD or the bipolar part depending on the severity and how long they last. The impulsivity also can be seen in hypo manic states. People think you have to self harm to be diagnosed with BPD or that if you have BPD you self harm. Neither of which are true. The psychosis can be under schizoaffective or BPD depending on its severity or length. Most people with mental illness have difficulties in relationship and with my BPD I internalize the anger and hurt so I’m not reactive like some people. Another reason I say “internal borderline.”

6 Responses to “The Borderline Personality Diagnosis”

  1. Joyce May 23, 2015 at 6:49 AM #

    I’ve heard it referred to as “quiet borderline” I am a quiet borderline in recovery. I was diagnosed in 2005, after being misdiagnosed for about 20 years as just having depression and anxiety. I did DBT for a year. I highly recommend it to anyone suffering from BPD. It was very intensive and difficult at times but definitely better than the alternative of having BPD for years more untreated.

    • mm172001 May 25, 2015 at 8:08 AM #

      I go through a lot of internal battles and internal urges. I don’t like the term quiet borderline so I made up my own term. I have a whole post explaining how it works with each criteria. You can search it or when I get home from camping I can comment the link.

  2. Joyce May 23, 2015 at 6:50 AM #

    Reblogged this on MAKE BPD STIGMA-FREE!.

  3. manyofus1980 May 24, 2015 at 12:22 PM #

    theres so much stigma associated with being bpd. internal borderline makes sense if you internalise everything. X

    • mm172001 May 25, 2015 at 8:06 AM #

      Yeah. I don’t like quiet. I like being original and explaining things in my own terms.

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