14 May

I felt empty inside so I ate. Now I feel sick to my stomach, have the urge to throw up, and the voices are back. Worst part: still feel empty. All I can think of is cutting. All I can think of is me being a failure. All I can think of is how I can’t candle this. 

Not okay. 

But I will be. I always am.  And in moments like this I feel no one appreciates how much effort I put in to being as well as possible. 

I foresee a summer hospital stay. Maybe just in bed here. But at the hospital I feel a little better, there are people like me, and my efforts are recognized. 

4 Responses to “”

  1. Shrewed Up May 15, 2015 at 3:38 AM #

    Big hugs XXX

  2. manyofus1980 May 18, 2015 at 8:26 PM #

    I hope you dont have to go to the hospital. I can see how hard you work each day to stay well. X

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