9 May

Feeling empty. Want to cut to feel something. So lonely and empty.

12 Responses to “5/9/15”

  1. vlcelis May 9, 2015 at 9:13 PM #

    I’m sorry dear…I really want to cut as well. 😦

    • mm172001 May 10, 2015 at 9:16 PM #

      Yeah I’ve had more urges lately.

  2. cazzroo May 10, 2015 at 1:27 AM #

    I’m so sorry that you feel so low and lonely..my heart goes out to you both… can i ask you are you deep down angry? has there been things in your life that made you mad but you didn’t feel able to say it? have you ever gone out into the wilderness and tried letting some of that out? I was at a workshop where we were allowed to get angry, to own some things from our past that made us SO mad, but we had never vented it anywhere and that anger gets lodged inside and manifests in this darkness that wants us to attack ourselves from the pain inside…. i was sectioned, held down and jabbed with shit to “help me” what a load of shite – and i was walking around with RAGE about that, but never really got it out… well bloody hell i did that day! I was screaming GETTTTT OUUUUUTTT OOOFFFFFF MMMMMYYYY MMIIIIIINNNNNDDDDD…so have a think see what comes up, and let out some screams, to the universe – she will listen like no=one else has before…. if you can clear some of this, you may feel lighter? I am sure yo both have been violated some how, we all have – that is society at the moment, full of ego, fear, anger, and hurt, so it goes around and around… but we have to let it out and clear ourselves out then the light can come in…. i wish you so much clarity and love on your journeys …. ask for help to your angels too, they are waiting to help you, but we are in free will so unless we ask for what we would like, they cannot help! xxxblessings and love

    • mm172001 May 10, 2015 at 9:17 PM #

      Part of it is anger but because of the environment I grew up in I’m not really comfortable expressing anger and it turns into sadness or emptiness frequently.

      • cazzroo May 11, 2015 at 11:18 AM #

        ah ha…so maybe a good exercise (one which I need to do also more and more to release darkest inner stuff) is to find somewhere in nature and scream into the ground. mother nature listens and the grass doesn’t mind a water from the tears as we break ourselves down releasing those hurts… i find it REALLY is helpful … and bit by bit, we can release more and more and the overall feeling is more lighter, and less dark… slowly slowly I know it takes time,,.. so much love to you ❤ ❤

  3. Cat May 10, 2015 at 12:07 PM #

    Sorry to hear this, Marci, hope you’re okay

    • mm172001 May 10, 2015 at 9:17 PM #

      Doing a little better today, thank you

      • Cat May 11, 2015 at 12:36 AM #

        nice one 🙂

  4. manyofus1980 May 10, 2015 at 5:50 PM #

    More hugs, we have felt like that too this weekend! Not fun! ❤ hugs ok?

  5. Andi May 10, 2015 at 8:10 PM #


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