The future looks desolate

29 Apr

Waking up in the middle of the night with this empty feeling and sense of dread. I see myself going no where again and life passing me by. I’m trying to do the right things but it doesn’t matter. I’m trying not to worry but it doesn’t help. Things look bleak and I go back to considering suicide.

7 Responses to “The future looks desolate”

  1. Bumblebee April 29, 2015 at 3:50 AM #

  2. prideinmadness April 29, 2015 at 5:16 AM #

    Remember your skills!! Xoxo

    • mm172001 April 29, 2015 at 5:29 PM #

      I tried to use some last night. Breathing with feelings and self-soothe both distress tolerance skills but neither was too helpful.

      • prideinmadness April 30, 2015 at 6:55 AM #

        That’s not fun then! Do you have that giant list of activities? My book has a massive one.

        • mm172001 May 3, 2015 at 8:00 PM #

          Some are hard to do in the middle of the night/morning and I don’t want to stimulate myself too much and not be able to get back to sleep.

          • prideinmadness May 4, 2015 at 8:38 AM #

            Fair enough. I have some aromatherapy that I have found helpful. Don’t know if that is an option? More soothing.

  3. manyofus1980 April 29, 2015 at 8:05 AM #

    Liking to show my support! I dont want you to end your life! Xoxo

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