Shame: not good enough

3 Apr

so I had an appointment with my case manager today and we talked about the mess with group, friends, and cliques. She said it seems like each time I’m not invited anywhere I see it as I am not good enough or in my words liked enough. We talked about this going way back and the whole not being good enough and I how I respond. Normally really hurt and easily can send me in a downward spiral. I don’t know if I really like the term shame but I definitely agree with not good enough. We also talked about how I wasn’t like this in high school or junior high and why am I falling back into it now. I guess back then I didn’t care either way and I had lots of friends. Now I really care and I have a few. I know quality is more important than quantity but it’s nice to hang out in a big group every once in awhile and not have to be hosting. 

3 Responses to “Shame: not good enough”

  1. manyofus1980 April 3, 2015 at 7:06 PM #

    Glad the apt went well. It sounds like you talked about some real hard stuff. XX

  2. revgerry April 3, 2015 at 10:52 PM #

    This shame or self-doubt is a part of the depression – or it was mine. As I loved myself more, it became easier (not easy) not to take things so personally. I wish the same for you. hugs, gerry

    • mm172001 April 8, 2015 at 7:56 PM #

      I think mine is from childhood which will be a process to over come. But it’s doable.

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