Crashing but not burning

27 Mar

I’ve been getting down on myself lately because I’ve been having such a rough time.  Also doubting if the medicine is still working and if this is going to be another multi-month depression.  Today I had an appointment with my case manager and it went really good.  She was comparing now to how I was this year last time.  I don’t remember things so good but she was reading messages I wrote her.  She also talked about getting better in shades and I was joking about how many more shades do I have to go through.  She seemed concerned about Monday’s mini psychosis but I dealt with it well.  She said it seems like I’m crashing but at least not burning.  I think that’s a great way to explain what’s going on.  I’m not going to let these blips ruin my progress.

4 Responses to “Crashing but not burning”

  1. mscassiopeia March 27, 2015 at 8:18 PM #

    Don’t give up. You can do it. 🙂
    One of the things I learned at school and in the hospital is that, in the total hundred percent effect of a drug, fifty percent comes from the drug, and other fifty percent comes from the person’s belief that the drug will work or is effective.

    • mm172001 March 27, 2015 at 8:19 PM #

      I know part of it is me working through therapy. It’s just hard when you have a pattern of crashing and burning.

      • mscassiopeia March 27, 2015 at 8:28 PM #

        Be strong and don’t let go.
        I’m sure it gets tiring, and even fed up of the routine.
        It’s a fight, and this is the best time where you should lean on family and friends who are in close proximity.
        Remember, maybe they’re not experiencing it too and they don’t have any idea what its like to be in your situation, but you’re not alone in this.
        You can lean on them. You can cry on their shoulder or just lean on them.
        Of course, you can talk to us here too.
        And when you feel strong again, you can stand up and continue helping other people with what you’ve been true.
        Let me remind you that you’re doing a great job and your strength makes you more beautiful.

  2. manyofus1980 March 31, 2015 at 10:10 PM #

    Go you for not letting the blips beat you. Way to go. I’m glad your case manager apt went so well. XX

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