6 Mar

February and March are the notoriously bad months, along with October. My last hospitalization was in October. I’ve taken apart a razor and as I lay here next to it, I’m dissociating in and out. Part of me doesn’t want to give up the 2 year self harm progress. But the stronger part doesn’t know what to do, and is tired of feeling like I have these last two weeks. Most of my support system is unavailable right now. I guess that means it’s just me again. But it seems like an unfair fight as more parts of me want to self harm or worse. 

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  1. Janni Styles March 6, 2015 at 8:03 PM #

    Hang in there, Marci, I have seen you go through some very challenging times and you did better than I think even you expected. Hold onto those times and remember your skills you’ve learned to help you. You may feel alone but you are not, my lovely friend. ❤ ❤ ❤

  2. Janni Styles March 6, 2015 at 8:05 PM #

    Also, you are right about these months being challenging as they are for so many of us. Brighter days are coming, you will see. Just take good care of yourself and be gentle on you.

    • mm172001 March 8, 2015 at 11:19 AM #

      Yeah I always wondered why that was.

  3. manyofus1980 March 9, 2015 at 4:57 PM #

    I hate the dissociated feeling. Its one of the worst feelings I think. Safe hugs sorry I wasnt around when this was blogged. XX

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