Prove them wrong

1 Mar

it was sometimes hinted out and sometimes directly stated that people thought I shouldn’t dat. Primarily because of my mental health issues and all that. I decided I’m not going to wait for everything to be perfect in my life to begin dating or relationships. I’ve been a weird mix of emotions since the break up: anger, disappointment, sadness, loneliness, numb or apathetic, relieved, anxious. It’s been a really mixed bag of course with some of the staples of any relationship ending. But I want to prove I can handle the break up in a healthy way. So far I’ve mostly just focused on my behavior and controlling it in regards to what my emotions might be urging me to do. And I’ve been pretty damn successful. I just don’t understand why it hurts so much when I didn’t think I had that deep of feeling for her. And why it’s such a mixed bag and then spilling into my regular life. I almost started crying last night over practically nothing. Maybe I need to cry. Maybe I need to stop wondering about this and focus on something else. I don’t know this is my first remember-able break up. I feel so lost. 

4 Responses to “Prove them wrong”

  1. It seems to me that you are handling the break-up of a relationship pretty much the same way as most people. You are allowing yourself to have your feelings and that’s so much better than bottling them up inside and have them explode later. And, if you put your life on hold and didn’t date, wouldn’t life be lonely and dull?

  2. manyofus1980 March 12, 2015 at 11:46 AM #

    all things considered, your doing great. dont feel you have to prove anything to anyone. this is your life and your feelings. feel them. XX

    • mm172001 March 19, 2015 at 9:37 PM #

      Oh I always feel like I have something to prove

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