Blah, blah, blah

18 Feb

Feeling blah again today. I did really good not eating much yesterday, but today I ate twice even though I still managed with no desserts. It sucks with my mood between low and numb because I want to eat. Also when I’m bored. Today one of my two classes was canceled. On the way walking from my class to my car, my legs felt like they were going to give out so I stopped and sat for a bit. I hate how out of shape I am. That my legs burn after walking small distances. That it makes my heart rate go up just putting on shoes. That when I climb stairs I hear my bones/joints creaking. That when I’m with other people I can’t do too much physical activity, cause I can’t breathe and/or get dizzy.

Speaking of dizzy, my anxiety was real bad Sunday night dancing. I’m not really sure why, I must have just been more vulnerable than usual. I had a couple anxiety attacks, and a near panic attack on the verge of tears. I spent most the night in the outside hall because being around all the people made me dizzy and have trouble breathing.

I hope tomorrow’s not another blah day.

2 Responses to “Blah, blah, blah”

  1. manyofus1980 February 22, 2015 at 5:25 AM #

    Sorry its been a sort of bla time for you. Feel better soon. I hate body issues. XX

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