Misplaced Feelings

11 Jan

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I had a counseling session on Friday. I’ve been pretty busy, so I hadn’t had a chance to post on it yet. My mood has been pretty good lately, just the feelings of insecurity, fear of abandonment and jealousy popping up here and there. I’ve always been an insecure person and the abandonment fears go way back as well. But jealousy really bothers me, because I don’t see myself as a jealous person. So that’s one thing I talked about Friday and got some pretty interesting feedback. My case manager was talking about how I crave an intimate connection and because I’m not in a romantic relationship, I’m misplacing or projecting those feelings on people that I am close to. It makes perfect sense really, because this is a pattern going on for a few years. I seek the devotion and support which just isn’t reasonable for the relationships I’m in. I don’t know if that will help quell the feelings but insight is always a good thing.

4 Responses to “Misplaced Feelings”

  1. Cat January 12, 2015 at 7:38 AM #

    Insight is wonderful and it sounds like you planted the seed to something new. I’m always in awe of your honesty. Many people don’t like to admit they’re jealous or fear abandonment… it is your honesty that will ultimately set you free of all this crap. Feel proud, Marci 😉 you’re doing remarkably well and it shines through in your posts

    • mm172001 January 12, 2015 at 10:18 AM #

      Thanks 🙂 I was a little nervous writing this post honestly. Sometimes the friend that these misplaced feeling are getting on reads it; but I wanted to be honest and I hope it can stop some of the worry and more problem emotions coming from a romantic relationship that doesn’t exist (and oddly I wouldn’t want he’s a great friend but I’m gay so it’s strange this projection is even happening.)

  2. manyofus1980 January 12, 2015 at 9:18 PM #

    Great insight Marcie! Well done on writing it it was brave I know how hard it is to do that when people who you aren’t sure of will or might read it. XX

    • mm172001 January 15, 2015 at 10:50 PM #

      Yeah I’m just going with it.

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