18 Nov

My mother is not the typical mother and I don’t think she ever was. It makes me sad sometimes but others I just write it off to her own issues. My mom didn’t show affection to anyone and my dad and us were no different. I don’t remember much of childhood. But as an adult my mom is cold and distant even though we live in the same house. Often I feel like a nuisance or inconvenience. Things change all the time and occasionally she can be supportive and try to put my needs first, but it’s not to be expected. If for whatever reason she isn’t having a good day it would be unfathimable that she would go out of her way to do anything, even simple stuff like celebrating a birthday. My mom comes to visit me in the hospital once in awhile now, before she refused and then later it was just a hassle. I think that’s what I am to her, a hassle that’s not worth it.

5 Responses to “Mothers”

  1. Kyra November 18, 2014 at 1:57 AM #

    That must hurt. I’m sorry. You deserve a family that loves, values, and supports you.

  2. manyofus1980 December 24, 2014 at 4:24 AM #

    I’m sorry your mom is like that. I’m sure in her own way she does love you. My mom is a bit like yours in that its hassle to her if I go inpatient, she hates going in to visit me, etc. But deep down I know its that she doesn’t get my mental illness. She doesn’t quite understand it. XX

    • mm172001 December 24, 2014 at 9:51 AM #

      My mom hates going anywhere, she is just very detached.


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