30 Days of Mental Illness Awareness Challenge: Day 2

2 Oct

I decided to start this challenge first of all to help my readers learn more things specifically related to my mental illnesses.  My fellow bloggers are welcome to participate in any or all of the challenge prompts.  I will do a post within about 3 days of the prompt and my response to link to people who participate, please pingback/link to this post.  If you chose to do the prompts later, don’t find the challenge till later, or life happens and you don’t get a prompt answered within the 3 days no worries, if you pingback to this post I will add you to the post that has the links to that prompt.  You can also start at anytime.  I hope this will raise some awareness and give you insight to mental illness.  The link to all the prompts is 30 Days of Mental Illness Awareness Challenge

MIA challenge

Day 2: How do you feel about your diagnosis?

I feel my diagnoses is accurate.  It bothers me that some of my mental health providers focus so much on the Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) because I think that is only part of who I am.  Many people say they feel a sense of relief after learning about their diagnosis and some even say things like “it sounded like they were telling my life story.”  I don’t fit into boxes, I happen to meet enough criteria for both BPD and schizoaffective disorder but I have other symptoms of other disorders and don’t think I fit into any of the stereotypical diagnosis profiles.  Then again part of the purpose of this event is to reduce stigma and bring about awareness which a big part is that mental illness often does not look like what you’d expect.

Having my diagnosis is a double edged sword: it is helpful in that it explains some things and helps me get treatment, it’s not helpful in that I still self-stigmatize and have anxiety regarding both revealing my mental illnesses to others and how the long term of my life is going to turn out with these mental illnesses.  So I guess it would best be described as having mixed feelings towards it.

11 Responses to “30 Days of Mental Illness Awareness Challenge: Day 2”

  1. Christine O. October 2, 2013 at 8:56 AM #

    I resisted being diagnosed for so long even though I think I always knew there was something different about me. I had such issues with anger when I was young but was so obsessed with being the ‘perfect kid’ I never let anyone know I was upset. I didn’t get the sense anyone else really had these kinds of feelings. But don’t we all just want to be like everyone else when we are children and teenagers? So I never let on that I felt like I was different and I kept it all in.

    Then as I grew into adulthood it was obvious as I had to fake my moods. Well, mostly just the good ones.

    Then after having my children I began to have intrusive thoughts and anxiety and did not realize until years later that was PPD. Now, after my OCD and Major Depressive Disorder diagnosis it all makes more sense. I do wish I had talked to someone about it then because I might have been able to enjoy my children’s infant stages so much more. And possibly even avoided the deeper depths of my depression.

    • mm172001 October 4, 2013 at 2:01 PM #

      Thank you for your comment and sharing some of your story. I think many of us resist being diagnosed especially when we are younger because we want so much to fit in, and then later it makes more sense and then you begin to get help though there is still the period of grappling with and accepting the diagnosis in many people.

  2. savemefrombpd October 2, 2013 at 9:12 AM #

    Definitely a double edged sword that I have been battling with also (pardon the pun there).

    But in the end, diagnosis/es do need to be made so that the professionals know what can help us both in terms of medications and especially therapy.

    So, hence, the negative stigmas need to be worked on in order to not be labelled in a negative way especially with some diagnoses.

    That’s the world’s challenge and ours too! Not easy but that’s how things are.. Onwards and upwards and more awareness is possible and hopefully is happening.

    • mm172001 October 4, 2013 at 1:59 PM #

      I agree. Thanks for the comment.

  3. prideinmadness October 16, 2013 at 8:20 PM #

    BPD is a double edged sword. I will elaborate on my Day 2!

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