Breaking the Silence of Stigma: Not What You’d Expect

14 Aug

I was invited to do a guest blog and this is it! 🙂 The post hilights stereotypes of the mentally ill and what people expect them to be like. It includes: some of my symptoms, a little bit of my treatment history, the stereotypes that don’t apply to me, and then a little about myself.

Bipolar For Life


I have my days, more than most.  I am mostly depressed.  Walking to the mailbox is exhausting and considered an accomplishment.  I stay in my room and hide from the world.  I don’t feel like eating, it seems pointless and food has lost its flavor anyways.  All I want to do is sleep but I can’t.

The thoughts won’t slow down long enough to allow me to rest.

“Why me?  This isn’t fair?  I just want it to end. You’re over reacting.  I wish I could escape.  What did I do to deserve this?  You’re stupid.  Just snap out of it.  Why me?…” 

I can’t sit still, my legs shake and my heart pounds as I try to anticipate what is coming next…  How bad will it get this time?  Will I need to be hospitalized again?  Have my medicine changed again?  Should I call someone?

I live 75-90%…

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11 Responses to “Breaking the Silence of Stigma: Not What You’d Expect”

  1. Laura P. Schulman August 14, 2013 at 11:20 AM #

    Marci, thank you so much for your wonderful contribution to Breaking the Silence of Stigma. An essay like yours can go a long way toward shattering the stereotypes and presuppositions that “neurotypicals” have about us. By “us” I mean people who have brains that don’t fit the mold. While it might be extremely painful and scary sometimes, we must keep in mind that we were made this way in order to bring our special gifts into the world. That’s how I look at it. Maybe it’s just a kind fantasy to keep me from killing myself, but it works for me. Whatever gets you through the night, right? Thanks again and take good care!

    • mm172001 August 14, 2013 at 3:32 PM #

      Thank you for allowing me to contribute and get my story out there.

  2. Elissa August 24, 2015 at 9:26 PM #

    May I simply just say what a relief to uncover someone who truly understands
    what they’re talking about on the internet. You definitely realize how to bring an issue to light and
    make it important. More and more people really
    need to check this out and understand this side of your story.

    I can’t believe you are not more popular given that you certainly have the gift.

    • mm172001 August 24, 2015 at 9:30 PM #

      Thank you. I write to try and bring these things to light. And it’s refreshing to hear someone appreciate it. thanks again.


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