In an effort to find the response to those participating in the 30 Days of Mental Illness Awareness Challenge easier to find, I am posting and updating this page to include the links to each day’s results/round up.
I decided to start this challenge first of all to help my readers learn more things specifically related to my mental illnesses. My fellow bloggers are welcome to participate in any or all of the challenge prompts. I will do a post within about 3 days of the prompt and my response to link to people who participate, please pingback/link to this post or tag 30MIAC. If you chose to do the prompts later, don’t find the challenge till later, or life happens and you don’t get a prompt answered within the 3 days no worries, if you pingback to this post I will add you to the post that has the links to that prompt. I will be starting to post my responses to the prompts in October, I am just posting this now so people can brainstorm and spread the word. You can also start at anytime. I hope this will raise some awareness and give you insight to mental illness. Here is the image to go with the challenge:
I frequently refer to myself as going into kid mode. Scared, sulky, not wanting any responsibility, entitled, feeling like throwing a tantrum, etc. lately I’ve been in more of a teen mode impulsive, emotional, insecure (especially within friendships and relationships) angered easily.
Does this mean developmentally I’m growing up?
I had a good day yesterday and today was looking good too. Until I made a phone call to book tickets to a tour for a Halloween tour at Disneyland. I even called, that’s how ok I was feeling. Both tours are sold out, it’s only been 5 days and I’ve already have had dad call two times before. I’m so disappointed and then I feel guilt and bad about being disappointed. I’m still going to Disneyland, just can’t do the tour I was so looking forward to. It’s left a bad taste in my mouth and now I don’t want to do anything include study like I need to.
I read this awesome article from PsychCentral about braking down Emotional Walls and how they form to protect us in childhood when we deal with emotional neglect. I really recommend checking out the full article here.
Here are Five Steps to Breaking Down Your Wall:
- Open up: Override the unspoken childhood rule DON’T TALK. Identify the trustworthy people in your life, and talk to them about difficult things in your life and difficult things in their lives. Talk about things you never would have before. Be vulnerable. Talk, talk, and talk some more.
- Make friends with your emotions: Several times each day, close your eyes, focus inward, and ask yourself, “What am I feeling?” Pay attention to how you feel about things, and listen to those feelings. Know that your feelings matter. If the feelings that come up are difficult to handle, please find a trained therapist to support and help you learn to tolerate and manage them.
- Take your own needs seriously: Override the unspoken childhood rule DON’T ASK. Tell the people in your life when you need help or support. And then let them help you.
- Let people in: Fill your life with quality people. Meaningful relationships are a primary source of richness, connection and meaning in life.
- Get to know who you are: Pay attention to everything about yourself. What do you love, dislike, excel at, struggle with? What is important to you? What are your values? What do you care about? Once you see the full picture of who you are, you will see your value and worth, and you will feel stronger.
17. Do you know anyone else who injures themselves?
Only people in the blogging world. I use to know a couple friends in real life that did, actually almost all the friends I had in real life were self harmers. But it was unhealthy and would get competitive.
So I didn’t accomplish the two other things. Just a combo of overwhelmed alternating with empty feelings. Intellectually I know i have things to look forward to. I just wished the feelings aligned. :(