In an effort to find the response to those participating in the 30 Days of Mental Illness Awareness Challenge easier to find, I am posting and updating this page to include the links to each day’s results/round up.
I decided to start this challenge first of all to help my readers learn more things specifically related to my mental illnesses. My fellow bloggers are welcome to participate in any or all of the challenge prompts. I will do a post within about 3 days of the prompt and my response to link to people who participate, please pingback/link to this post or tag 30MIAC. If you chose to do the prompts later, don’t find the challenge till later, or life happens and you don’t get a prompt answered within the 3 days no worries, if you pingback to this post I will add you to the post that has the links to that prompt. I will be starting to post my responses to the prompts in October, I am just posting this now so people can brainstorm and spread the word. You can also start at anytime. I hope this will raise some awareness and give you insight to mental illness. Here is the image to go with the challenge:
I read this awesome article from PsychCentral about braking down Emotional Walls and how they form to protect us in childhood when we deal with emotional neglect. I really recommend checking out the full article here.
Here are Five Steps to Breaking Down Your Wall:
- Open up: Override the unspoken childhood rule DON’T TALK. Identify the trustworthy people in your life, and talk to them about difficult things in your life and difficult things in their lives. Talk about things you never would have before. Be vulnerable. Talk, talk, and talk some more.
- Make friends with your emotions: Several times each day, close your eyes, focus inward, and ask yourself, “What am I feeling?” Pay attention to how you feel about things, and listen to those feelings. Know that your feelings matter. If the feelings that come up are difficult to handle, please find a trained therapist to support and help you learn to tolerate and manage them.
- Take your own needs seriously: Override the unspoken childhood rule DON’T ASK. Tell the people in your life when you need help or support. And then let them help you.
- Let people in: Fill your life with quality people. Meaningful relationships are a primary source of richness, connection and meaning in life.
- Get to know who you are: Pay attention to everything about yourself. What do you love, dislike, excel at, struggle with? What is important to you? What are your values? What do you care about? Once you see the full picture of who you are, you will see your value and worth, and you will feel stronger.
17. Do you know anyone else who injures themselves?
Only people in the blogging world. I use to know a couple friends in real life that did, actually almost all the friends I had in real life were self harmers. But it was unhealthy and would get competitive.
So I didn’t accomplish the two other things. Just a combo of overwhelmed alternating with empty feelings. Intellectually I know i have things to look forward to. I just wished the feelings aligned. :(
I had everything figured out, then life throws you for a loop. A person from group is hosting poker night at her house. But I’ve never been there before, I’m in my vulnerable state, and it was pointed out to me I’m not a big crowds kind of person. So I had decided not to go and we we’re suppose to do random restaurant Friday, but my sister canceled this morning. I made it to therapy and I’m trying to fill out the little journal again of nice things people say/do to look back on when the intense feelings that people don’t like me, or are going to abandon me or reject me come up. I had 3 things to accomplish, 4 after going to therapy because the therapist says u should try to eat more for more energy. I ate lunch despite not going with my dad. He is having the cat put down today. It’s not affecting me that much cuz I have so much other stuff going on. Now I took some NyQuil because it’s just too much. I’ll do my hmwk when I get up (the 2 other things). Trying to stay unclingy despite some serious urges. Don’t want to wreck a good thing.
I feel like my life is falling apart which in no new feeling to me. I have parts of my life and they kind of separate from the others, I compartmentalize a lot; usually there are only a couple of compartments (school, family, mental health). Now as I’m trying to expand my life and create the life worth living there are more compartments which mean more opportunities for things to go awry. Which just causes me even more anxiety. But I talked with two people who gave me different perspectives than the way I currently saw things and I am feeling a bit better. I know that a lot of the stuff is just the way I am and I need to be okay with that. I need to tolerate being alone better too. Well I need to work on a lot of things, like most people I imagine. But there are some exciting things happening in my life and new things and possibilities. I know I can’t just wait till I get stable to start living life but it’s really unnerving feeling like you’re living on the edge all the time. I gotta remember that there are different type of friendships and just because I want a deep friendship with someone doesn’t mean it’s going to happen and that just how it may be. I need to learn to be okay with surface level friendships. I need to learn when to leave a situation because being around people is making me more uncomfortable and worse. It’s a lot of stuff to think about, but it makes me feel like I could be in a little more control. And I like certainty and control.